Time Fly

Hey everyone!

haha it seem that i havent update much on Blogger site kus im very much busy on stuff  mostly being lazy haha. anyway.. its 2012 and we are already on Feb wow time fly so fast eh. i dont know much what i wanna say. but all i wanted to write down is what i think im talking to myself . owh yeah im listening to Howl Moving Castle theme song. .... aaaaah is really soothing melody make me wanna dance with someone or be hug and just have the moment with someone but mostly ball dance perhaps i really wanna try doing some ball dance with someone. maybe someone that we are meant to be to fall in love ? lol -blushing-


Anyway, for the past few month its been really lonely and confusing month for me. its feel like im loosing my mind thinking to much  other then studying. and to tell the truth.. i dont know how to focus  on my studies anymore. im loosing track on my life and pretty much in a mess. i doubt that i have mental issue been trying to find the right people to express or to show me the way. but i cant find any particular person yet even my best friend. But one think for sure is im glad that me and my Bestie are doing well now and getting much more closer then ever. -smile- and now im learning to be more positive in life and take over mylife.. but i dont know if i can do it alone... even tho there a so called family but i cant really be connected to them tho.. -sigh-... i wish one day my head is clear so is my heart tho. INSYA ALLAH. but partly im trying to get more into my religion kus i been neglected



well now thats all from me... i'll write more soon when i feel like have a nice time everyone

Selamat Hari Raya

-sambil makan ice cream sambil menulis-

ehem... since dah bnayk sangat saya tulis kat Fb.. x thu nak type in apa kat sini.. apa pun.. selamat Hari Raya saya ucapkan pada Kalian. Jari jemari ini daku susun untuk memohon maaf kepada mereka yang mengenali diri saya.. mohon maaf dipinta seandainya dalam tempoh kite bersahabat.. ada terkasar bahasa atau melukakan hati anda dengan apa cara skali pun..

This raya is not the same as before...since she is not here with me.. but she will remind in my heart.the feeling i am having right now.. is not really sad.. neither is a happy feeling.. all i know it is empty

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this is a lonly raya for me this year... i must admit that.. and this is the 1st time without her.all i can do iss..pray for my beloved mother Zarina Bt Abd Hamid..Al-fatihah..not to mention for my cousin family they also lost thier beloved Father this might be the same sad day for us.. but life must go on.

itu saja lah buat masa ini.. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri;)

Laugh yet i Cry

Days have passed..walking this path alone and be strong forever..

that all i can do now..but its heavy for me.. yet i have to endure the feeling..

i smile, i laugh, making silly stuff just to make myself happy..but deep down inside shall no one ever know it..kos no body can replace the warmth i've lost.. but yet i never blame anyone..

The tears i shed is for my Misses toward her..

The laughter i share show how proud i am to have her..

The happiest i have show how grateful i am to have her..

Thank you Allah for your bless ..Amin

DONE!!!

AAAHHHH is done is done!! do you know the feeling when u've done something and u really love it and u just wanna scream and tell the world?!!! YES that is the feeling i am having now >w<

lol ok is like this.. ive seen soo many digital drawing and illustration which make me envy how they done an amazing job with them.. and i am freaking jealous of it.. soo i made up my mind too learn it.. sooo i browse some youtube and WAL-LAH i found it.. so i tried on a newbies will every tried first XD is called tracing.. and is kinda hard when i use the mouse but here is my work :D

yup this is my 1st digital drawing :D

Is ugly i know i know but i kinda love it since is my !st attempt (omgsoh i feel fawking noob) owh pls free too drop a comment.. i need too develop my skils.. is a big help if u comment on it >w<

pls and thank you

Update.. owh Update

hmmmmm.... hmmmmm... hmmmmm... blaah blaah O wO

lol i am seriously dont know what too write down all i know i just wanna press this keyboard soo i can listen too the "tapping" sound of it.. and i dont know why i wanna do it. lol maybe just too release some stress and soo on.. lol.. hmm what to write down ... tap tap tap.....

Owh yes lately i am really into digital drawing.. or illustration.. aaah been wanting too do it.. and i find it hard too do it kos i am using a mouse! not a tablet..! owh well i don't really mind about it.. since is fun and i am getting addicted to it~~ OH MY GUCCI~~! *o* at last i can doo it ( well my tracing tho) is lame i know is lame well at least worth of trying dont you think? lol sooo here is my beginning sketches

lol i know its bad kos its still on process and i am still learning.. the 1st one should be the black and white and the 2nd one is the color... phew it really need hard work on this.. =3 either way i am reallu doing my best

UNDEr CONSTRACTION~~~

Well is been awhile since the last i wrote something in here.. just updating stuff and trying to find some stuff too upgrade my blog here. xD sooo updating is starting

Hoping

Time passes by day by day.
i notice that these days is hard too find the truly the "ONE" for us. But people says that when the time has come u will know that "THAT" person is for u. but still how should we know bout it? n how should we react on it? when will it happen? who is the person? what will happen?

plus there a word "HOPE" that most people use in term on believing on something might or will come in the future. but too me i dun think i trust in the word hope thats because the word hope is soo subjective n abstract. i do still believe in hope. but when it come too human need i dun think i hope for anything. such as friends, community & etc. but still hopeing is a very good thing to a person. From there, they will be a dream & mission that they want too archive...

But as for me. HOPE is a very big thing for me. and i am very concerned bout the word..
i also am tired to put hope on someone. because in the end i am the one will take the risk..like i like th to be his gf.. but in the end it is just worthless kos that person end up already have some else in their heart. i am getting tired of all this.. i know we should not think much about this but i feel very lonely..and i also want a friend that could be trust on.. i am tired of living on people rely on me...HOPING for me to take care all of it...